I have just completed Day 13 of my Whole 30 challenge. I feel empowered although I am still waiting for the awesome tiger blood energy to kick in! Never fear, it is rumoured to appear from day 16 onwards. On the whole I think I am in a better place than before I started this challenge. My thought process is less cloudy, I feel more alert and I am needing a lot fewer naps. My hands became a lot less puffy early in the process and haven't changed much since. I am hoping that they improve a little bit more.
My sick leave has been extended which I am in two minds about. I am grateful for more time to focus on getting into a better place health wise and allowing time for the doctors to figure out exactly what is going on. But there is always the longing for the challenge that is critical care nursing and the pride in earning a wage. I am trying not to focus on the latter as it will come and I will be back working those crazy shifts that punish my mind and body. In fact I have been doing a lot of soul searching in recent weeks and wondering if critical care nursing is for me. I've worked in that field since 2005 and I love it or is that loved it. As you can imagine it takes a toll on you emotionally. I am starting to feel that there are other areas of nursing that I could thrive in. Areas that had no night shift which would ultimately be better for me and my immune system. I must remember that I have to be well enough to be in the privileged position of being a nurse for others. I pride myself in being able to serve them in times where sickness as hit and the joy of seeing someone get back up on their feet and take on the world again can not be described fully. Therefore over the next few weeks I am planning to update my CV and have a look around for other jobs. I may not fully give up critical care nursing at first, rather keep it as a safety net while I test the water elsewhere. I am ready for a new adventure and challenge in my professional life.
I am always up for a challenge, however it has to be the right challenge. Over the past year I have found this frustrating as I couldn't find any suitable challenges due to my ill health and chronic pain from my arthritis. Last week I made the decision to stop letting the arthritis dictate what I can and can not do. I bravely enrolled in an event in October here in Brisbane called the Neon Run. It is a 5km event and whilst I do not plan to run it (I've never been a runner) I am planning to get out there, with my husband and supportive friends and walk those 5km. For many of you reading this 5km does not sound like much, but for me with the daily battle of arthritis and the joint pain and stiffness which comes with it, the 5km is a big deal. Also being out in the community participating is a big deal especially for someone like me who suffers from depression. Getting involved in large events can cause feelings of anxiety and in recent years I have had to learn to overcome them. I am going to walk those 5km with pride and happiness, I am fighting back and winning. The event is also for Beyond Blue, an organisation which helps people battle depression and other mental health issues, something which remains a battle for me. I am extremely excited to be able to participate in this event and will be heading back to the gym after a short 3 year break! to walk on the treadmill and get some fitness back and some muscle growth happening.
Do you set yourself daily, weekly, monthly challenges and goals? Tell me about them in the comments, I would love to hear them.